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Moved

2009-03-20T22:55:00.002+08:00

ok.

that's it.
this is the end of this blog.

too many things have happened.
be it good.
or bad.

now the archives will just be serving the memories.

but every ending marks a new beginning.
and therefore, i began elsewhere.

moved.

lots of love, lisa

... 2009

2009-02-15T22:26:00.002+08:00

well.
new year.
new resolutions.
new dreams.
new things.

but now.
all i'm feeling is tiredness.
work has been sucky.
for the past 3 weeks, we're kept up till 7.
by the time i'm home, i was even too tired to eat dinner.

i cant wait for holidays.
there's so much to do.
yet so little time.

just a wish for the new year.
to have more time.
to spend resting.
to spend with my family.
n to spend to catch up with all my friends.

2008-12-02T00:15:00.000+08:00

happy 19th birthday, Adek! (:
may all ur wishes come true.
n may u be blessed always.

anyways.
just a random thought.
the regatta race holds a special meaning for me.
cos it was the first race i rowed in when i first dabbled in db.
yet this year, i missed it!
it's just sad for me that i wasn't able to row in the race.
cos i didnt commit myself to trgs.
sigh....................

random updates

2008-12-01T00:35:00.000+08:00

there is a lack of updates in this blog.
pardon me but sometimes there's just too little time.

alot of things happened in the past months.
some made me happy n others made me thoroughly upset.
but after all that, i'm just contented that i'm getting a break right now.
i just need to get back at doing what i love most.
and to catch up with everyone who matters to me!
i haven been seeing my poly mates.
haven been seeing my teammates.
haven even saw most of my besties!
well. let's not forget the NCC frens.
i haven seen or heard from anyone in the longest time ever!
the only people i saw recently was the sec school peeps.
n of course, the frens in school.
(not really excited to see the colleagues; just the frens.
two very different sets of people.)

so it got me thinking.
is tis wat life comes to once u move on from a certain place to another?
now that i'm working, i haven seen any of my poly frens or the NCC ones.
n to think, these are the ppl whom i spent alot of time with in the past 3 years or so.
it actually made me feel sad.
cos its either i didnt have the time to meet up with them.
or they couldnt make time for me.
sigh.....

anyways.
life in school can be a bitch sometimes.
cos ur new, the older ppl will scrutinize u.
and suprise, surprise.
these ppl actually have alot of time to spare!
why i said that?
cos some of them actually took their time to observe and then, gossip abt me.
apparently, they are pretty concerned abt who i am frens wif n all.
i mean "HELLO????!!!"
do i need their permission to be someone else's fren?
so i came to this conclusion: some older people just suck!

moving on...
it's the holidays now.
but i'm not going anywhere.
such a sad case.
guess will use the time to get back at trg seriously.
went to see them during regatta last week.
n i reali miss the team spirit.
miss taking part in races.
n most of all, i miss my babes :(

okays.
there's so much more things that i wan to say.
but rite now, i just cant write anymore.
just letting all my babes know:
i miss all of u so darn much!!!!!!!!!! <3

2008-10-22T23:19:00.000+08:00

and once again, i'm plaqued with smth.

last week, it was the tonsils infection.
plus a bad flu.
this week, the flu has subsided.
but den, guess wat.
the stomach's nt feeling too well.
don even feel like eating sometimes.

sigh.

dear Friday, pls come soooooon ok?

i want to go back to how things were.
to be able to do the things i want to do.
n the things i <3.
its just so frustrating how things turned out to be! ):

misses! ):

2008-10-20T22:08:00.000+08:00

just a short one.

i miss practically all my friends!
n the things i love doing!

omg.
i've been missing out on things.
on people.

work is this sucky vacuum.
which sucks out all the energy.
n leaves me super drained out.
argh.

anyways.
the people i'm missing right now:
my besties.
my db sisters.
my NP friends.
my ex-colleagues.
my sec sch peeps.
my NCC gfs.
and ......

and the thing i miss doin the most is .....
training! ):

selamat hari raya

2008-10-04T08:17:00.000+08:00

i guess its high time i update tis blog of mine.

been busy with work.
and the fasting month.
plus all the tiredness i was feeling.
i didnt even haf time for trg! ):
dat explains why there's no updates at all.

anyways.

would like to wish everyone a 'selamat hari raya'.
if i haf ever hurt anyone's feelings with my words and actions,
i seek forgiveness on this blessed month. (:

i feel tired on this yr's raya.
it falls on a wed n haf to be back at work on thurs.
gah!
i was zoning out on thurs when i teach.
hah.

took some pics on hari raya.
with the Sony T70!
yey. heh
will post up some pics later on.

anyways.
its a sat.
a day for me to slp in.
but my aunt n mom woke me up at 7.
n nw i cant slp again.
so i guess i'll go do some work den.
zzzz

hope to update sooooon (:

2008-08-25T16:51:00.000+08:00

it's been awhile since i last wrote smth down.
ok.
more than a month actually.
hah.

basically, everyday's becoming a routine for me.
except for some surprises now and then.

some may wonder if my blog is totally dead.
well, truth be told, i myself wondered if dat's what happening.

but its too saddening to just close down this blog after using it for years.

so for now, the blog's still very much alive.
i will make an effort to try and blog more often den now.

anyways.
i wan to write down everything that has happened.
but i just find that sometimes too much details will be a bore.

i'll just keep it short n simple.
life's been rather normal.
nth out of the ordinary happened.
well, i miss my girlfriends.
hopefully i get to see them more often.
aini's told me quite a shocking but great news.
rawaidah's starting her new job too. yey.
hamx's hair has grown longer. yippee!
my db babes are busy with their things in one way or another.
n of cos, who can blame them.
when i'm supposedly always busy too?

other den that, am eagerly waiting for the month of ramadan.
i can say that now as i grew much older, i'm loving ramadan more than syawal.
syawal used to be the month me n my sis waited for.
the month when we ended our fast.
the month when we can feast all we want.
n not forgetting, the month when our pockets are filled with green packets.
but now, ramadan holds more of an importance to me.
the month when i can atone for my sin much more.
the month when i will do my religious biddings more.
n the month when i do not just abstain from food, but all the undesirable behaviours too.

well, there u have it.
the post that comes once in a month?
i hope that it was entertaining enough.

oh don worry.
if i ever close down tis blog, i'll be sure to haf a grand closing ceremony.
to commemorate the closeness i feel to it.
(of cos, i cant beat the Beijing Olympics Closing ceremony, can i?)

btw.
happy reading, babes.

2008-07-22T21:11:00.000+08:00

so tmr's a whole new day.

cos i'll be starting afresh tmr!

yey!

hopefully everything goes well for me.

Insyallah.

2008-07-19T22:49:00.000+08:00

the cough's been on and off since the end of last month.
very sucky indeed.
finally went to see a doctor on thurs.
due to my teammates' urges. haha.

doctor said too much phlegm in the lungs.
but the chest pain is nth to worry abt.
so given a ten days MC from trg.
sigh.
sian.
argh!

must recover quickly.
so can get back to trg faster.
i miss trg can. ):

anyways.
planning to make cycling a weekly affair.
or at least, a bi-weekly thing (:

sleepy

2008-07-11T20:21:00.000+08:00

haven been sleeping well this week.

on wed nite, me n mom spent the whole nite at nuh.
tanx to my sister.
she was having stomach cramps the whole week last week.
brought her to the doctor.
given medicine and she was ok.
but she was wailing on wed nite.
really crying like a baby.
dad asked me to bring her to a 24-hr clinic.
but i told mom to just bring her to A&E.
cos i bet doctors will refer her to any hosp.

so we went A&E.
went thru alot of scans n tests.
den she got warded.
ard 3.30am, the doctor informed us she had to haf an op.
so we waited till 7am.
slept awhile at the lobby but cant really slp.
dad came by at 6am.
sis ended her op at 7.
went to see her awhile.
den went hm since we cant see the doctor or accompany her.

catch some slp.
den went to the hosp again.
it was really a hectic day.
cldnt slp. or do anything for dat matter.
but glad dat sis alright nw.
she's been discharged n she's abit better nw.
hopefully she'll learnt some lesson here! (:

anw today's my last day at WGS.
was kind of anticipating it.
maybe cos i cant wait for a new environment.
but nw dat it happened, i admit that i feel kind of sad.
sigh.
that bittersweet feeling.

updates

2008-07-03T08:33:00.000+08:00

the blog's been non-existent for awhile now.
blame it on the laziness.
hah.

anyways.

things that went on these past weeks.
sch term started again on the 23rd of june.
so back to work again.
but for only 3 weeks tis time.
yey! (:

the June Race was just over.
last weekend.
the feeling of racing is gooooood!
though i haven been training as regularly as i shd.
will be back for more after the break (:
the guys got silver and bronze for the InterClub category.
mixed, womens and mens went into semis.
after dat, post-race dinner was on.
very rowdy as usual.
but nice! (:
btw NUS womens team won the PM cup for the womens category.
n NTU guys won the cup for the mens category. (:
oh. met daniel hu there.
rowed for safsa.
OCS dragonboat club. hah.
he looked so noob can!
cos of his hair.
haha.
hamx n me had a whale of time laughing at him.
he got a recruit haircut by accident.
stupid? haha.
and he's nw like best frens with my poly classmate, jerome.
wat a small world.
hah.
n ppl might mistake them for gays can.
whenever i see one of them, i'll see the other one as well. (:
i saw weizheng too.
rowing for the same team as them.
n he announced to everyone else that we shared the same birthdate.
hah.
its reali fun to see all the ppl u haven seen for quite some time.

oh noe wat?
just when i thought that the national language is English,
the otherwise happened.
i was quite taken aback when smth like tis happened on Tues.
was queueing up to pay some bills.
saw two people conversing.
an Indian man and a Chinese woman.
n guess wat?
the medium of language that they used was Malay language!
i felt that the whole scenario was pretty funny.
haha.
ok. random.

NCC day was two days ago.
happ NCC day to all!
especially to my babes.
n to the pioneer batch of supernumeraries too!
i miss all of u can! ):
i miss all those times too.
boohoooo.

okays.
i'm bored in sch nw.
its my only break nw and i'm still given relief work.
so much for their promises.
quoted: "we wont be giving u anymore relief work for tis term".
bull shit. just a lip service.
whatever.
next week's the last week!
cant wait! (:

oh. contract teaching's starting on the 21st.
dunno which sch yet.
but hopefully its near the hse!
heh.

okays.
till then.
will blog more
bye loves (:

2008-06-16T20:34:00.000+08:00

been through alot these past few days.
tanx to HIM for giving me the strength to go thru all of these.
tanx to everyone who were there for me.

anyways.
my granddad's finally out of ICU last week.
the surgery went ok.
been to the hospital to and fro almost everyday.
hopefully he'll be out soon too.

oh.
sch's opening sooon.
having mixed feelings abt it.

okays.
i'm at lost for words.
argh.

write later.

is there really freedom of speech?

2008-06-03T23:41:00.000+08:00

today is one of my happiest day in my whole life. (:

i received the letter of offer of acceptance.
my goodness.
my wish n prayers n true!
after sooooo very long.

thanks to the Almighty for granting me my wish.
and of course, to everyone else who always kept me in your prayers.
i love u babes! <3

there's not much words to describe how i feel right now. (:

2008-06-02T23:32:00.000+08:00

4 minutes by Madonna & JT

the new running song.

the song's really good for running.
the beats keep you going.

i personally do not really like the both of them.
no offence; just not my kind of favourite celebrities.
but i have to admit this song's niceeee.
it has that catchy tune that makes u want to listen to it.

so i ran just nw.
to this song.
n it really kept me going.
don ask me why.
it just do.
haha.

p/s: random post. don bother to read if u don like it.

2008-05-30T21:56:00.000+08:00

the blog's almost dead.
cos i've been busy with other things.
hah.

anyways.
i lost my phone quite recently.
so if u happen to read tis, do sms me ur no ya.
i'm still using the 927_____.

went for channel U's u are the one show on Monday.
be one of the guest judges.
hah.
along with a few teammates.
van, eunice, candice, jane, hsing yee n doreen.
it was quite fun.
n crazy too!
at first, i was just nonchalant.
cos i felt that its just another reality show.
but after the show got started, i became high. hah!
tanx to jane, van n candice. ;p
the guys in the show wasnt all good-looking.
but there's two who caught my attention right away.
they're just hot! haha.

Garvil Sarkos

Zhang Zhen Huan

i tell u.
they're realli hot ok.
haha.
n of cos, these two are in the final 4 (:

oh.
went for the sch's sec2 adventure camp last weekend too.
was quite fun.
i reali miss goin for all the camps.
boohooo.
no words to describe how much i miss them.
sigh.

aini (one of the besties) left for Mecca with the family today.
praying she'll haf a safe journey to n fro.
i'll miss her alot. (even if it's only for 10days)
she stood by me through thick n thin.
on worst days and on good ones.
my other besties do that too.
but as of nw, thay are all missing from my life.
sigh.
went to see her off at the airport just nw.
it was quite saddening.
nvm. will be seeing her in 10 days. (:

that pretty much sums up the happenings in my life.
it isn't much but then, it's my life.

oooooo. did i mention i love Popeye's to bits? heh.

2008-05-13T10:57:00.001+08:00

am sick now.

having flu.

argh.

my worst enemy.

sneezing like nobody's business.

this sucks.

2008-05-05T21:10:00.000+08:00

tons of markings to be done.
and its nt MCQs or structured questions!
sigh.

something's on.
this thursday.
cant wait.

i hope n pray that the result will be good.

2008-04-23T09:12:00.000+08:00

i wish that life is all about ...

green grasses
beautiful white clouds
blue, blue sky

but heck, who am i kidding?

life will never be the way i want it to be

2008-04-16T22:23:00.000+08:00

i read huiting's blog the other day.
n i reali felt sad and upset.

they celebrated van's 22nd bday.
n it really looked like the girls' outing.
but only i wasnt told abt it.
or informed.
maybe its cos of the food.
but i still can be there rite?
sigh

i noe tis is random.
but i just reali felt sad, upset and frustrated.

):

2008-04-15T14:08:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, IBU! <3

may all ur wishes come true.
may u be happy always.
and may ALLAH bless you.

love,
me (:

2008-04-04T13:45:00.000+08:00

my dearest cat passed away.
i've written down what happened here.
but STUPID BLOGGER decided to die on me.
great.
farking Blogger.

will update again what happened.

2008-03-25T12:14:00.000+08:00

okay.

my current mp3 player died on me yest!
argh.
but yes, it had served me well.
for 3++ yrs.
till it broke into two.
but smart me put it back together with a tape.
haha.

so i'm really getting the new mp3 player, as said.
but of course, not the pink one.
sooo not my colour.
hah.

i'm just blogging to express my frustration over the mp3.
but at the same time, i felt sad.
sigh.

ok peeps.
got to get back to work.
cya! (:

even the best ; falls down sometimes

2008-03-24T14:28:00.000+08:00

i'm turning 21 soon.
in 7 days, to be exact.

the so-called age to freedom.
hah!

what's so impt abt birthdays?
i guess, its merely the day when u turn a year older.
older, wiser. yups.
when ur younger, birthdays are the most exciting.
cos its the day u receive tons of gifts.
but when ur older, it doesnt matter.
though surprises wouldnt hurt too! ;p

i guess my most memorable bday wld be the 19th one.
was having attachment.
and guess wat?
my poly frens bought cake to the office!
so sweet rite.
n yes, they bought me gifts too.
was supposed to meet up wif the Ncc peeps after work.
but apparently, everyone was busy.
and then, they had a surprise celebration for me!
yey. heh.
wont go into details.
den when i reach hm, the family is waiting with a cake too!
but its really the most memorable bday for me.
cos its the day where i've got 3 bday cakes!
hah. but dats nt the point, really.

its just abt how much ppl cared to rmb ur bday.
n u'll be happy for the rest of the day.
heh.
of course, i'm nt asking for gifts.
but i wldnt mind them either. heh

this yr, i'm goin to buy gifts for myself.
get the 2GB Creative Zen Stone Plus Mp3 player.
eyeing a new phone. heh.
and some other random stuffs.
haha.

oh. nini said she oreadi got smth for me.
so i told her dat if its nt the Harry Potter book or the new cap i want, i wont want any.
hah!
n she told me nt to be choosy. grr.

anyways.
meeting up with the poly frens on sat.
cant wait!
i tink the last time i saw them was on the day we graduated.
sooo last year.
hah.

had quite sucky day at sch today.
but talking to mr heng after sch brightens up my day.
yey. (:

ok.
just so u ppl noe.
even if i havent sms u.
or give u a call.
or even say hi to u on msn.
its nt cos i don bother anymore.
its cos i'm too caught wif things ard here.
bleahs.
but don worry,
just letting u noe, i miss u babes! (:
<3

2008-03-20T22:26:00.000+08:00

so i have not been updating.
was utterly busy.
work sucks.
like who wont agree, rite?

i had a breakdown yest.
the first one in a long time.
n this time, i reali feel like quitting.
talked to the ppl who are close to me.
some said i shd go if i wan to.
some said i shd hang on abit there.
talked to mom.
she said i shd stay.
hang on abit.
talked to RSM today.
n he said, yes. i shd stay too.
he noes i'm made of stronger stuffs than tis.

i dunno why.
but Sir's words made the greatest impact on me.
(of cos, my mom's too. but dats besides the point).
i did a reflection. n i agree.
i'm usually strong.
so why do i haf to back down for tis?
i guess i lost a part of me somewhere.
the part where i fight n never give up.
i made a promise dat i'll find it back.
n fight relentlessly till the end.

dearest ppl who had always believed in me,
i thank you for every bit of support u gave me.
thank you for giving me great advices.
n nt forgetting, thank you for always being there for me.

-loves-

2008-03-05T19:03:00.000+08:00

saw tis on my table on monday morning when i got to sch.
a pleasant surprise.
heh.
apparently, mr heng came back to sch on sat to clear his stuffs.
n left me all tis.
so sweet rite.
just letting u noe.
mr heng is tis 30-ish yr old science teacher in the sch.
he just resigned from the teaching line.
mr heng sounds old but we're just used to calling him dat.
haha.
anyways.
everyone else was jealous cos mr heng left ME (ONLY) sweets n chocs.
(read: everyone includes rezuan, fizah n yin shih. hah)
so mr heng sort of lifted my mood on monday morning.
no monday blues.
heh.
n of cos, ppl like him always tink they're cool n good looking.
so he signed off as Mr Hengsome.
zzzzzzzz.
anw yes, i just wan to blog abt tis.
dat mr heng made my day on monday! (:

if mr heng isn't married yet, i'd probably have a huge crush on him. heh

2008-02-28T09:04:00.001+08:00

in sch right nw.
feeling the need to blog.

hah.

the lack of updates is due to the fact that there's nth much dat happened.
its just work n work n work everyday.
sigh.
but thankfully, i've decided to drop one of my tutee.
cos he's really impossible.
he's taking o-levels tis yr.
and he expects me to spoonfeed him with answers ALL THE TIME.
grrr.

hopefully, i'll get to do the things that i want to do again.
but just couldnt find the time to.
i realised that giving two tuitions on top of working can be very taxing.
especially if the tutee don put in effort at all.
sucky.

oh ya.
i havent announce officially that i've finally passed my TP.
nt very good.
but i passed. (:
my instructors said dat as long as i pass, who cares abt the points?
haha.
i truly miss them.
haven got the time to get them a thank-you gift yet.
bleahs.

okays.
class is starting in 3more mins.
got to go.
blog again soon.
love you babes (:

2008-02-24T22:00:00.000+08:00

have you ever felt like you are not important to someone anymore?
but because you have smth that they wan,
you're suddenly their favourite person in the whole wide world?

that's exactly how i'm feeling rite nw.
i wont go into details.
but i tink these ppl are just sucky.

bleahs.

my heart isnt there anymore

2008-02-19T20:40:00.001+08:00

AND SOOOOO.....

i MADE it!!

yey me!

wheeeeeee (:

the third time.
they say third time's lucky.
i guess so.
(:

2008-02-18T22:09:00.000+08:00

MAKE IT. OR BREAK IT.

dear lisa,
you have to make it.
no matter what.
believe in yourself.
and you can do it.

love,
me

2008-02-07T23:37:00.000+08:00

apparently, i am someone's role model in the team.
is that cool or wat.
haha.

went for trg on tues.
just finish my sets of weights.
den tis new guy came up to me n said:
heys. my name's alvin. ur my role model. i wan to do weights like u do.
haha.
its just funny.
nv thought i cld be someone's role model.
haha.

after cool down, the coach made us do this left-right dumbbells.
so The Mat just had to tease me.
he said: eh minah. cepat siket la buat.
which means he asked me to do faster.
zzz.
oh. he's chinese.
but i just take pleasure in calling him Mat.
cos he's reali like a mat.
tapered jeans.
speak mly.
haha.
so in return, he calls me minah.
annoying.

anyways.
to all the chinese friends out there,
here's wishing u a happy new year!
haf a prosperous year ahead! (:

2008-01-29T12:04:00.000+08:00

went for trg on sunday.
n boy, i reali missed it!
it feels good to be back! (:

but everywhere i turned or every face dat i said hi to,
they went: wahhhh! so long nv see u oreadi.
haha.
i noe, i noe.
i've been missing.
but i'm back oreadi can.
heh.

saw alot of new ppl whom i've NEVER seen before.
the girls.
enough for one big boat.
so amazing.
haha.

but don worry.
i'm back for good.
my seat will always be my seat (:

2008-01-27T11:22:00.000+08:00

so i've been missing trgs.
wats new rite?
bleahs.

went for self-trg on friday.
n it reali proves dat i need to get back n train.
till nw, my knees are hurting like hell. ):

i'm sick. AGAIN.
my throat hurts.

work is sucky.
cos the students are.
its at times like tis dat i wish i'm back at RSS.
rite, aney?
heh.

cant wait for wk6 of sch.
cos it'll be the CNY hols.
yey-ness.

i wish i don haf to work so hard.
its frustrating.
gah!

ok.
i just want to rant.
don wan to hear it?
f-off for all i care.

2008-01-18T23:08:00.000+08:00

there's reali alot of things in my life dat i'm missing rite nw.

for one, i reali miss training alot.

all the running. the rowing.

n nw, i'm back to zero stamina.

it reali sucks.

and of course.

i miss ncc toooo.

though i'm nt actively involved anymore,

i'm still updated occasionally of the ongoings.

i reali miss ncc alot.

it's been a part of me for 7++++ yrs.

how can i forget it just like dat rite.

work's hectic.

it made me tired.

n gives me the sucky feeling.

making me miss out on all the fun.

all the things i want to do.

oh yes,

did i say i don miss work?

sigh ):

2008-01-17T21:35:00.000+08:00

life's been mundane.

day in and day out, its all the same things.

work never seems to end.

no matter how much i do in a day.

and work made me very, very, very tired.

n easily irritable.

so, go on n piss me off.

i bite.

2008-01-13T17:50:00.000+08:00

my paddle tasted kallang's water for the first time today.
after river regatta 2007.
i noe, i noe.
its been quite long.

when ming saw me, he was like: wah, ur here ar. u finally came.
i was like -.-
haha.

nt many ppl at trg today.
cos alot are at bangkok.
there's four girls.
me, van, jane n kaira.

trg was torturous.
sigh.
i need to get back into focus.
all the stamina is gone!
gah!

okay.
my back muscle is aching nw.
which means i've used it rite?
hahah.

ok.
dats it for nw.
nth much to blog abt.
life's been miserable.

2008-01-10T22:08:00.000+08:00

even heroes have the right to bleed

2008-01-07T14:41:00.000+08:00

i just wan to curl up in the corner.

i just wan to be left alone.

i just wan to cry.

i just wan to die.

i hate failing.

happy new year

2008-01-05T20:28:00.000+08:00

happy new year, babes!

ok.
so i'm abit late in the wishing.
been pretty hectic.
first week of sch.
n i fell sick.
so nw i'm as sick as a chicken.
ugh.
i even missed wenjie's wedding today.
but at least i saw the couple tis morning.

yest, i saw rawaidah.
n she said i looked like a zombie.
today, yanming said i don sound ok on the phone.
but den, someone just had to ask me:
eh how come u always fall sick laaa?
sick for soooooo long.
tanx for ur concern ya.

went for my last prac yest.
i was so tired n sick dat i cldnt drive properly.
even he said dat my driving yest was abit off.
sigh.
i kept on hitting kerb.
i was so out of focus dat i saw a straight-going car turning.
n i happily wanted to turn too.
so i almost caused an accident for us.
argh.
tis taxi almost hit us from behind.
cos he wanted to inch into my lane.
without signalling.
so stupid can.
so he made me change lane n stopped beside the taxi.
n guess wat he did?
he pointed his middle finger to the cabbie.
TWICE!
haha.
at the end of the lesson, he dropped me off at the mrt station.
hope its a good sign?
cos the first time he did dat was my first ever lesson wif him.
but he made my day yest.
tanx (:

nth much today.
had tuition.
went back to sch cos needed to get stuffs.
after dat, stayed at hm n continue being sick.
ugh.

i wish work wont be so hectic.
i'm working on my stuffs nw as i'm blogging.
its oni the first week n i feel like i oreadi need a break!
sigh.

2007-12-29T21:48:00.000+08:00

haven updated for some time.

was busy wif some things or other.

stuffs happened.
ppl come n go.

which reminds me.
just after the demise of the 5 dragonboaters,
which left me very very sad,
one of my sec sch classmate of 4 yrs passed away.
raymond koh meng qi.
passed away two days before hari raya haji.
was utterly shocked when i heard the news.
jannah called me dat nite n told me abt it.
mark told her.
i told fariha, richard n suhaimi.
on dat friday itself, me, fariha n rachel went to the wake.
its so very saddening to see him lying in the coffin.
its so unbelievable.
i cried cos i cldnt control myself.
he became very bloated, nt like the raymond i knew.
his cousin told us dat he was bloated cos of the meds they gave him.
apparently, he had fever for 12days.
den went into coma for the next 6 days.
after dat, it led to brain damage.
he's doin his OCS trg nw.
n just signed on wif the Navy.
which explains why he was donned in the NO1 uniform.
he's the only son in the family n also, the eldest.
had 3 younger sisters.
two of whom, we saw, looks EXACTLY like him.
its reali heartbreaking to hear all tis from the cousin.
he was my classmate for 4 yrs.
he stayed so near me! ):
he was a very nice guy.
i don wan to describe anymore.
cos i wld just be so sad n cry again at the thoughts of him.
sigh.

missed the x'mas celebration wif the team.
cos stayed in to accompany my mom.
since no one's at hm.
they booked a hotel suite to party.
haha.

been missing trg.
last thurs was hari raya haji.
den sunday was lt fadli's wedding.
tis tues was x'mas.
i sprained my ankle on thurs morning.
gah!

oh.
attended lt fadli's wedding last wk.
met up wif firdaus n company.
its soooo good to see those ppl again! (:
its been reali long since we last see each other.
lt ye. sgt kelvin. sgt pan. sgt eugene. n lots more!
n of cos, junhong came too.
but den, i see him like every other day?
haha.
but we had fun at the wedding.
cos got to catch up abit wif each other.
took photos.
looked at the wedding procession.
its abit different from other weddings i've attended.
but the food wasnt dat nice!
bleahs.
we got to take pics wif the couple.
yey.
heh.

anw after much much contemplation,
i finally made my choice.
i'm goin back to wgs next yr.
teaching eng n lit.
fixed classes.
it wont be quite the same though.
cos arul, daya n shukor wont be there anymore.
sigh.
but i still haf fiza, rezuan n azleen!
yes, she's back in wgs.
yey (:

oh.
we went to kak mas's (our HOD) hse today.
hse warming-cum-son's bday.
she just moved.
n i tell u, her hse is soooooo damn nice can!
reali.
i tink everyone's impressed laa.
n of cos, her son is cute.
haha.
the food's nice tooo. (:

oh. oh.
went driving yest.
did evaluation.
got 10pts for it.
hmmmm.
again, we went on a road spree?
haha.
n we realised dat 100mins is too short for us.
hah. (:

anyways.
some of the events dat happened made me realised
dat life is very very unpredictable.
it can be all happy moments today
n it'll be a totally different story the next.
i'm learning to appreciate life more.
n be thankful for everything n everyone i've got.
live life to the fullest.
make the most of it.
have no regrets.
cos i realised dat life is too short to make too many mistakes.

okays.

i tink i've wrote long enough.

pardon me for writing in non-sequence.

i just wrote whatever dat comes to mind first.

bye world.

good night.

2007-12-15T22:47:00.000+08:00

again.
driving yest was crazy!
i like!

heh.

its a revision lesson.
but since there's nth much to revise, we drove ard.
did a course of circuit n we left bbdc.
agreed dat the same old routes are boring.
so we decided to explore some place else.
and my!
its soooo coool!
heh.

went to jurong.
passed IMM.
passed all those buildings there.
he wasnt sure of the roads dat much.
so he said: if we hit the e-way, we'll excahnge seats ok?
haha.
we managed to stay off the e-way.
went back to bukit batok area.
den ventured into bukit timah.

tis stupid car cut into my lane (without signalling) just when we were abt to enter the tunnel at the flyover.
she even flashed her stupid high beam at us.
so he taught me how to do dat back at her.
hah!
driving at 70km/h on the flyover is soooo awesome.
drove passed NP.
my alma mater (:

drove by SP.
den clementi.
we were on the most left lane.
which has a go straight n turn left arrow on it.
den the turn left light flashed.
n the stupid driver horned (ALOT OF TIMES) at us la!!!
wtf can.
n tis stupid taxi beside it horned at us too.
like hello!
wats ur freaking problem?? ur nt even in the same lane.
so we gave way n turned left.
soooooooo stupid.

after dat, we made our way back to jurong.
he said dat the next person who bullied us, we'll just horned at them.
but sadly, no one dared to.
haha.
reached bukit batok again n it started raining sooooo heavily!
turned on the wiper n still cant see the road at all.
was abit scared but i overcame it (:
back to bbdc.
n it just made my day.

he said in his two yrs of teaching, i'm the first student he ever brought out to places besides the test route.
its cos he trust my driving n dat i can do it.
i feel so honoured!
wat can i say?
i'm just his favourite student.
heh.

we were subjected to road bullying.
just because the car has the L plate.
fark all of them.
but at the end of the day, i learnt smth.
when u learn ur theories, horns are for alerting others of danger.
when ur a qualified driver, horns are to show aggression n anger.
come on ppl! where's ur brains?!

2007-12-14T10:28:00.000+08:00

i dreamt of _______ last night.

it went like tis:
i just ended land trg.
he waited for me, so he cld walk me to the interchange.
we talked n walked.
after awhile we had to cross the road to get to the int.
jaywalked instead of using the traffic light.
the road seems to be clear.
but just when we started jaywalking, a car came at very fast speed.
i cldnt reali run cos i hurt my ankle.
n he held my hand n run wif me.
he let go of my hand only after we reach the mrt station.
it was kind of awkward but he just smiled.
i went to wait for the train.
n he left for his own bus.

i noe tis is a very random dream.
but it seems real.
i dunno why but it actually scares me abit.
sigh.

2007-12-08T12:38:00.000+08:00

driving wif a certain 26yr-old beside me can be crazy.

it was entertaining, funny n irritating-in-a-fun-way.
he kept changing gear for me when i forgot to change back to first gear.
he tore the used evaluation papers to small bits to put them back in the empty chewing gum bottle.

but the highlight for yest was when he played wif the aircon.
we were in the circuit.
he on the aircon to full blast.
den turned it down.
i kept telling him to stop n he imitated me. (grrr.)
n he misted up the whole car!
he made me do the parallel parking n i cant even see the sighting point.
den the both of us laughed together.

went out to the road.
he wiped the rear view mirror.
cos he tinks dat very impt.
i was like: hello! den why did u mist up the whole car?
den he laughed.

a 26yr-old actually takes joy in misting up the whole car.
ok.
i'm nt so innocent either.
cos i was laughing alot in the car.
haha.

wat can i say?
my instructor's just the best! (:

2007-12-05T22:52:00.000+08:00

ok.
so my arms are really killing me rite nw.
reali reali.

the coach made us do new weights regime.
n i reali feel like my arms falling off soon.
i cant even bend them properly.

nt forgetting the shoulder.
the blades are reali hurting.

gah!

pls just let me be in one piece.
sigh.

2007-12-03T22:47:00.000+08:00

so i finally made my decision.

been putting it long enough.
had to weigh the pros n cons.

i tink i'm making the right decisions.
and i'm just glad to get the support from the loved ones.

2007-11-30T10:55:00.000+08:00

i didnt slp the most of last night.
nt dat i don wan to.
but i just cant.

my knee's giving me problems.
hurts reali reali bad.
no matter how i toss or turn, i just cant slp.

nw dat i'm awake, its still hurting.
its a piercing pain.
gah!

its sooo cold nw.
dat my feet haf become numb too.
argh.

wats wrong wif my legs???!!!! :(

2007-11-28T00:22:00.000+08:00

the demise of the 5 rowers has taught me very valuable lessons.

that death is the most unpredictable thing.

that i'm never too young to die.

that life is very fragile.

i guess we all took alot of advantage on life.

like the fact dat you don care abt others.
oni when u are abt to lose them do you realise
dat u have never give a damn abt them
and start to appreciate them more.
oni when someone is abt to leave you,
u learnt to treasure them more.
n of course.
the fact dat death only comes for the aged.

got to noe a fren.
took advantage of the fact
that i'll always see him.
but when smth bad happened,
i got worried dat i'll lose him.
n i started to appreciate his presence more.

n everything else in my life.

i'm just guilty as charged ):

2007-11-26T18:04:00.000+08:00

i felt very saddened over the demise of the 5 N-team rowers.

i'm quite affected by it.
even though i do not noe them personally,
i shd tink dat we haf bump into each other
at least once at races or trg sessions.
i believed dat they're very talented rowers.
or they wldnt make it into the team.

all i can say is Rest in Peace guys.
my deepest condolences goes out to their families.

the incident left me thinking dat life is short.
too short.
there shdnt be spaces for regrets.
life must be lived to the fullest.
always.

note: dear Kelward, i'm glad ur ok. hope to see u sooon.

2007-11-21T19:58:00.000+08:00

my aunt just told me today dat i'm fatter!
argh!
dats like the most sensitive word can.
argh argh argh.

oh man.
i'm fatter laaaa.
i feel fatter nw.
sheeesh.

i wish dat the reply wld just come oreadi!
n a good one at dat.
sigh....

2007-11-20T14:10:00.000+08:00

WILL MY HAIR JUST GROW LONGER AGAIN NOW????!!

grrr.
i still hate dat hairdresser.
stupid auntie.
sheesh.
cutting my hair was the biggest mistake ever.
sigh.

right now,
i'm just craving for dat
Swiss Miss French Vanilla Cocoa drink.
yummmmmmmy.....

2007-11-17T21:49:00.000+08:00

i hate being jobless.
i'm nt jobless, per say.
i'm just nt teaching nw.
cos its the hols.
will be back at it in jan.

being jobless makes me feel like an invalid.
at least dats how my parents make me feel.
dad wans me to work fulltime.
nt do relief teaching.
cos he said its nt good.
nt stable.
nt tis. nt dat.
bla bla bla.
mom tinks dat i'm a little lazy to find a job.
i hate tis.
tis suck.

i hate the way my parents treat me.
they still treat me like a notorious teen.
fyi, i'm turning 21 in a few months time!
ugh.

i looked at the army n navy website just nw.
toying wif the idea of signing on.
but den, i don tink i'm fit enough for tis.
argh.

my life sucks.
period.

bleahs

2007-11-15T13:26:00.000+08:00

okays.
so here's some pictorial evidence of my test.

test car no 39.
route no 9.

the first page of the assessment.

my ONLY mistake in the circuit.
NOTE: rolling backwards has NEVER happen before.

this portion of the page alone has 24 points.
which already failed me.

tester ticked all the wide n sharp turnings box.
i tink he was hoping there was more of those boxes.

the tester.
who ravin described as "the man with the moving pen".
cos he ticks the boxes like nobody's business.

the result.
obviously a FAIL.
look at the number of points.
i almost died looking at them.
NOTE: again, this has NEVER happen before.

the back of my PDL.
which is goin to haf another line written on it.
when i go for my second attempt.

Note:
tis post is written out of boredom.
n also, for the clueless ppl.
who ALWAYS read my blog.
but KEEP ON asking if i had passed or failed.

2007-11-12T14:20:00.000+08:00

today's azizah's 2nd attempt for her TP.
n she passed!

CONGRATS BABE! (:

n guess wat?
she oni got 6points can.
dats like so goooooood!
woooohoooo.
i'm soooo proud of u! (:
-hugs-

i tink a need a break now.
from everything in my life rite nw.
can i haf a break from reality?
i wish i don haf to wake up from dreams again.
but heck, who am i kidding?

2007-11-09T19:38:00.000+08:00

9th November.
Car no 39.
Test route 9.

i tink the number 9 sucks.

its nw officially my UNLUCKY number.

tanx to all who had been there for me.
rawaidah.
azizah.
aini.
hamx.
iskandar.
sum.
mr ting.

i love u guys alot.

butterflies

2007-11-08T18:59:00.000+08:00

tmr's THE DAY!

yes. my TP.
i'm praying dat it'll be my first n last.

sum says he has confidence in me.
mr ting says i shd pass first time.
my dad's anxious.
aini says i shd just be confident.
hamx says i can do it.
iskandar says good luck.
yy says no worries.

argh.

i can feel the butterflies in my stomach.
n it seems like they're multiplying by the hour.
tis feeling is the exact same one i get
everytime just before a race starts.

the nervousness.
the anxiousness.
the excitedness.

oh man.
i shd be calm.
i shd slp early tonight.
but i very much doubt it'll happened.

ok ppl.
wish me luck!
i'm prepared for it.
but i need some luck n love too!
<3

2007-11-07T23:25:00.000+08:00

hello there ; the angel from my nightmare

2007-11-06T20:13:00.000+08:00

courtesy of rawaidah.
she's being a doll today (ONLY).
got me these from Donuts Factory.
double choc + raspberry dark choc.
tanx babe! heh.

so River Regatta '07 is over.

the results:
inter-club - GOLD
veterans - SILVER
mens open - 4th in Minor Finals
womens open - 4th in Minor Finals

mixed team made it into semis.
nt the finals tis time round though.
quite saddening.
but we shall train harder!

had driving revision today.
quite sucky.
no, make dat very sucky.
got myself a random instructor.
and he TRULY suck.
i wont mind if he scolds me n all.
but guess wat he did?
he sleeps in the car!
slp in the car, nvm.
slp & SNORE can!
ugh.
i e-braked soooooo many times.
n still he didnt wake up.
like WTF can!
so tis one time.
i purposely change lane abruptly at fast speed.
he woke up n got kancheong.
tried to hold my steering wheel.
but hey, i noe wat i was doin laa.
hahaha.
den the best part was.
he actually said dat its cos i didnt talk to him
dat he fell asleep.
HELLO!
did i come for a lesson to talk to him?
shucks.

anyways.
i tink instructors like him shd all just die.
i seriously tink today was a waste of time.
n nt forgetting, money!
its like i paid BBDC $59.92 for him to slp.
i tink i'm goin to complain to the cust svc tmr.
asked him to be removed from my pool of instructors.
yups, i shall just do dat.

tmr's MAMBO JAMBO nite at zouk.
the team's goin.
ok. mostly.
shall i go too?
or shd i just be a good girl n stay at hm?
haha.

2007-11-05T21:45:00.000+08:00

haf u ever felt like u dunno ur frens anymore?
who ur true frens are?
who are the real frens?

dats how exactly i'm feeling rite nw....

randoms

2007-11-03T20:16:00.000+08:00

so my dream car wld be a mazda rx-8.

its soooo sleek.
n cool.
n of course, sporty.
it wld be VERY NICE to own one.
though i tink i can nv afford it.
haha.
but just look at it.
IT'S SO NICE!
n yes, its very very fast.

but den, i'll be contented wif a Subaru Impreza. :)
its soooo coool.
the rims are so shiny.
the car body is just sooo -loves-!
haha.
n nt forgetting, its FAST!

wat can i say?
i just LOVE fast cars! :)

when rawaidah sees tis, she's soooo goin to call me HIGH MAINTENANCE.
but who cares?
hahaha.
at least i'm nt like her.
miss i-need-a-sedan-car-but-i-wan-honda-city.
haha.

ok.
tis is just a random post.
don read it if u tink its a waste of time.
bye world (:

i hope tis will never end :(

D-Day!

2007-11-02T21:04:00.000+08:00

so River Regatta's here!
in a few hours, dat is.

i haven felt all jittery yet.
but i bet it'll come later.
just when i'm ready to go to slp.
zzz.

had driving today.
enjoyed it as usual.
told sum i'd be a patient one today.
n i reali proved it to him.
he was quite impressed n happy abt it.
but den, look who's talking?
haha.

on a random note:
nw i haf the MOST UGLIEST HAIR in the whole world.
truly.
i'm goin to hate the auntie who cut my hair.
for the rest of her life!
ARGH!

wth.

now playing: the potential break-up song

2007-10-31T21:34:00.000+08:00

so time has passed even faster.

Regatta's in 3 days!

tis wk's the start of the sec sch hols.
been catching up on my slp.
but somehow the biological clock don allow me to.
quite frustrating.
ugh.

i shd so stop going to causeway point to buy things or so.
every few steps i take, i'll see my students.
n they'll be like "eh cher!!!" *waves*
they just haf to let the whole world noe i'm their teacher.
sheesh.

anyways, THE day is in 9 days!
i shd stop feeling anxious.
or i wont stop having all these dreams.
it scaring the hell out of me.
sigh.

oh before i forget.
HAPPY 25th BIRTHDAY, REZUAN! (:
may all ur wishes come true.
n may u haf the best bday yet.
<3

countdowns. again

2007-10-27T20:13:00.000+08:00

so River Regatta's in 7 days now.

time seems to pass sooooo fast.
ugh.

had my first two driving revisions tis week.
sum's supposed to take me.
but he did warm-ups.
so i got mr ting.
i kept stalling engine on wed.
which hasnt happened in such a looooong time.
mr ting asked wat happened.
me: i'm stressed up cos he's beside me.
mr ting: its ok. i'm nt pressuring u or anything.
but towards the end of the lesson,
he said: make sure u pass ur TP first time ar.
me: zzzzz

again, got mr ting yest.
was driving.
saw mr tang, rawaidah's instructor.
told mr ting dat she passed her TP dat morning.
on her ___ attempt.
den he said smth.
mr ting: ok. i don care abt other instructors' students.
i wan you to pass first time ok?
me: er... okays.
so much for saying dat he don pressure me la.
dats oreadi the second time he said dat same thing.

9th of November's the day.
its in exactly 13 days.
dats the day, i'll make it or break it.
but i'm hoping like hell, dat i'm goin to make it.

countdowns!

2007-10-21T17:05:00.000+08:00

River Regatta's in 13 Days!!!

a number of things happened in these few days.
wont talk abt them.
but i learnt a few things from them.

1. Never take things for granted.
2. Do whatever u feel like doing, before its too late.
3. Learn to let go.

these are lessons for me.
lessons dat i wont forget so easily.

was having the worst migraine ever yest.
i've nv had one like dat before.
my head reali feels like it abt to split open. :(

anyways.

its only 19 Days to the Day!

somehow, i feel dat i'm ready.
but at other times, i just feel like i'm nt.

listening: tiger lily - matchbook romance

2007-10-18T15:31:00.000+08:00

9th of November 2007 is the Day!!!

start panicking!

anyways.
got "suan" by SOMEONE the other day.
quoted: rain or shine, trg's still on.
i missed trg on tues.
cos it reali was raining super duper heavily.
i cant even get out of my hse.
therefore got suan-ed.
like hell, i did self-trg ok?
sheesh.
if u were in my shoes, u'd noe how is it.
u tink i wan to miss trg on purpose?
so much for ____ _______.

2007-10-13T00:06:00.000+08:00

whatever happens to
i'm calling just to hear your voice?

on a random note:
i wan smaller boobs!!! ):

but anyways,
Selamat Hari Raya to all the muslim frens.
I'm seeking forgiveness for all the wrongdoings committed.
be it bitching, vulgarities or violence (and the list goes on...)
May you ppl enjoy Hari Raya with the loved ones (:

2007-10-10T11:09:00.000+08:00

my knee, deltoids n biceps are screaming for help!!!

haven been blogging for awhile.
busy, busy, busy.
ok.
not entirely.
but sch, trg n driving are my thing nowadays.
by the time i feel like blogging, i'm oreadi almost asleep.
haha.

nth's much goin on rite nw.
its just same old, same old.

but i wan to thank these babes for being there for me.
when i felt the suckiest.
hamx -for the comforting hug
waidah - for just being there for me
eunice - for the assurance

i just love my babes.
they rawk! (:

hari raya's in like, 3 days.
somehow i'm nt excited as years before.
maybe its cos i'm older n wiser nw?
haha.
but reali.
as much as i'm looking forward to it,
a part of me feels its nt as exciting anymore.

ok.
i've run out of things to say.
there's too much to be said dat i cant put them in words.
but den, some things are better left unsaid.

i love polka dots!

hot!

2007-09-30T22:16:00.000+08:00

so again today was freaking hot.
i'm totally burnt.
i thought nth can be hotter den yest.
but today just proves me wrong.
i was feeling so dehydrated oni by the first hr.
bleahs.

i just haf a love-hate relationship wif the sun.
the sun loves me.
i hate the sun.

i love my teammates though.
they are very nice ppl.
since yest, they were very concerned of my well-being.
candice lent her cap to me.
cos i didnt bring mine.
today they helped pour the cold sea water on me.
cos the sun was too hot.
the heat was too much to bear.
ugh.

saw ah pau after trg.
she injured the right triceps during her weights trg.
scary!
she told me tis: u seem to put on a little weight.
i almost died from hearing dat.
den she said dat its oni my upper body dat seems bigger.
the arms n shoulders, u get it.
but the rest looks ok.
looks like i've cut down since the last time.
so she told i just haf to run and run and run.
no escaping from dat.

but reali.
today's heat is too much for me.
i can still feel the heat right nw.
i wish i live in an eskimo or smth.
argh.

but i'm reali glad i survived the day.
fasting throughout.
though was tempted by things.
like candice offering me hTwoO.
the team given free redbull.
sigh.

oh the heat's making me spaced out more often.
nt to mention, sleepy.
i hate spacing out.
cos it makes me do stupid things.
or just KO.

ok.
no spacing out allowed.
no zoning out allowed.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
oh wait.
i've already spaced out.

what doesnt kill me ; makes me stronger

2007-09-29T10:22:00.000+08:00

its only 10am and i'm oreadi wide awake.
argh!

i've intended to slp till almost 11.
cos i slept late last night.
n the night before tooooo.
there's still trg later.
n nw i'm very very awake!
sheesh.

its so super frustrating can.
ugh.
hope i wont be cranky the whole day.
):

2007-09-28T23:31:00.000+08:00

so i got tis today from rawaidah.
i love it so much!
tanx babe (:

i can nw strike it off my wishlist.
heh.
did i say ur the best?
u reali are.
hahaha.

finally fixed my grp today.
better late den never, i might say?
heh.

dats it for today!
*elated (:

2007-09-27T20:13:00.000+08:00

somehow i felt like i've made a terrible mistake today.

its nt wrong to me.
as long as professionalism is there.
but it just doesnt feel rite.
like its a sin.

but i cant undo what's done.
the only thing i can do is to draw a line.

its nt wrong but it just doesnt seem rite.

unconditional love

2007-09-23T21:05:00.000+08:00

someone once said tis to me:

my love for you is unconditional

no matter how far apart we are, i'll still love u
no matter how much we change, i'll still love u
no matter how many years pass, i'll always love u

its funny how promises are made.
and never fulfilled.

where is this love when i needed it the most?
where is it when i'm at the lowest point of my life?

all i'm saying is:
don ever make promises dat u cant fulfill.
it gives hope to others,
only to break their hearts.

if only nursing a broken heart is as simple
as glueing back pieces of torn papers together.....

fairytales don always haf a happy ending

yey-ness

2007-09-21T21:24:00.000+08:00

saw my instructors today at bbdc.
like finally!!!
yey-ness can.
saw mr ting right after my DS lesson.
i went: MR TING!!!!
den he smiled n laughed.
we talked abit.
"complained" to him abt stuffs.
heh.

waited for the shuttle bus.
was looking out for a certain car.
my other instructor is in there.
n yes, i saw him!!!!!
double yey-ness!
heh.

i didnt get them for my lessons at all tis week.
which is so unfair.
ugh.
i just don like random instructors cos diff ppl teach diff things.
sigh.

but den.
i get to meet/see my instructors today.
n its enough to make me happy! (:

i guess its the little things in life dat makes me content.

why do i always attract the wrong type?

sava sprints III

2007-09-16T21:34:00.000+08:00

so no doubt, i was quite disappointed.
we didnt manage to win anything.
not even in the plate finals.
sigh.

was the pacer today.
somehow i tink i disappointed the team.
ugh.

but it was a good ~~experience~~ race, i guess.
though the whole team wasnt there.

anyways.
i'm proud of myself.
n hamx, my babe.
cos we fasted for the 2 days.
n we didnt even tink of breakin our fast.
yey to us! (:

oh.
someone made my day today.
just a simple hi n a wave was enough to make me happy.
i tink sometimes its the simple things in like dat makes me content.
(:

2007-09-13T22:34:00.000+08:00

hidaya said tis yest:

awak tak bawak kamus, is it?!

it was so damn hilarious.
dat i laughed my guts out.
she was telling us abt her ex mly teacher.
n the way she mixed mly n eng is just funny.

ok.
u might tink i'm lame.
but den, its just me.
n its funny.
(:

yest's driving was ok.
like usual.
quite fun.
n of course, the lame one has alot of his jokes.
haha.

oh guess wat.
i got hit by a soccer ball when i took my PE class just nw.
it was damn hard n i felt like crying.
damn the kids.
told joe abt it.
n he was quite concerned.
he's nice! (:

ok dats it.
tmr's friday!
yey! (:

and i'm gonna miss you ; like a child misses her blanket

random-ness

2007-09-07T22:58:00.000+08:00

its amazing how much i get to know abt sum-one in, say, one hr and forty mins?

and i've seen him 3 times before today n nt noe any of these before.

1. he doesn't talk much cos he claims he's tired. he thinks he's overworked. haha.
2. he's 26 tis yr. i don even haf to ask to noe :) (see, rawaidah? heh)
3. he's great to talk to. once i initiated the convo.
4. he stays VERY VERY near to my place (and sum-one's goin to call me a stalker). haha.
5. he owns n drives a Subaru. which i can guess from his look. heh.
6. he's been at the job for 1 and half yrs.
7. he calls his fren, Mr Bean. hah.

he's nice to talk to.
though previously, he always looked bored or half-asleep.
he crack jokes abt having BMW and the Merc logo.
which is super lame. haha.

and he tinks he noes the perfume i sprayed on.
him: dkny apple perfume?
me: no. body shop's rougeberry.
haha.
though my phone smells of dkny apple perfume nw.
heh.

anyways.
my ftt's on monday.
i will and am goin to pass it.
the wait is excrutiatingly loooooong.
n dat sum-one is bugging me abt it.
so i'm sooo goin to pass it.
for me. ~~and mr sum.~~

dat aside, caught ratatouille today.
the movie is reali good.
worth ur money.
though mine's paid for. heh.

anyways.
there's extra trg tmr.
n i'm still aching from yest's trg.
sigh....

but i can complain, can i?
i had a very goooood day today.
yey-ness (:

pain, pain, go away....

2007-08-31T23:18:00.000+08:00

i've been feeling tired n sleepy alot these days.
tanx to the medicines.
and thank goodness, my chest pain subsided.
doctor said its nt a symptom of heart attack or smth serious.
its just from the cough n stress.
sigh......

i missed land trg tis wk.
was given a one week MC from exercising.
but might be goin for trg on sunday.
which, i am very sure, my parents wont let me go.
sigh......

the only thing dats keeping me sane nw is driving.
i got my favourite instructor today.
so driving was quite smooth n calm.
except for some misjudgements of the kerb.
i got to drive alot today and i like it.

i guess i just need to be alone these days.
to wallow myself in self-pity.
to drown myself in my thoughts.
to get away from the reality.

but den again, who's wif me nw?

no one..........

):

2007-08-28T22:22:00.000+08:00

was having terrible chest pain in class today.

it felt like heartburn at first.
oni it was longer.

dear GOD, pls let me get thru tis pain.

new skin :)

2007-08-27T22:08:00.000+08:00

so i'm back wif a new skin.
presenting my own work.
yey!
i love it.
wat others will say.
dunno. don care.
hah.

driving's been fun.
cant wait for the next one.

few more days to the sch holidays.
few more days to teachers' day too. (:

i'm in an emo state nowadays.
don mind me.

failure

2007-08-21T21:52:00.000+08:00

how many time does a person need to fail in order to pass once?

ARGH!

i just wish, more often than not, dat others wld try to understand me.
why is it so hard for them to understand me?
am i dat hard to be understood?
i just wish for once, that they would believe in me and stop doubting me.
wats the point of a friendship if all they have are doubts n endless doubts.

i look like a walking wreck.
with dark, terrible eye bags.
n all they care abt are themselves......

i feel the NEED to hibernate ; and disappear

girlfriends

2007-08-17T22:56:00.000+08:00

have you ever heard your best girlfriends say these:

we'll go through thick n thin together
we'll always be best friends, no matter what
i'll always be there for u...

...and the likes.

well, i have.
but i just don see or feel it anymore.
sigh.
i miss my old gfs.
but they're just too busy wif their lives nw.
new frens, new bfs, new schs, new work.
promises of lunches or dinner are always nt fulfilled.
forget abt sms.
even when they see me online,
i haf to always be the one to initiate a convo.
even then, they'll end it after 5 msgs max.

so i wonder.
whatever happens to best friends forever?
whatever happens to "i'll stand by you"?
is the friendship just part of history?
or am i just too uncool to be ur friend anymore?

i guess dats it.
girlfriends.

its personal ; myself and i

yucks

2007-08-16T20:55:00.000+08:00

guess wat?
i'm sick.
AGAIN.
tis sucks.
its the flu again.
plus terrible coughing.
thank goodness, the fever is gone.

sigh.

why do i keep falling sick?
i hate being sick.
cos it wld mean:
i cant reali run cos my chest wld hurt
i look like a wreck when i'm sick
i just don haf the energy to be the normal me

sigh.......

anyways.
there's so much for me to say.
to get these things off my chest.
to get these thoughts out of my head.
but i just cant seem to find the right words to say.

till death do us part ; what a lie

hur-hur

2007-08-11T15:34:00.000+08:00

met up wif aini.
after like, a decade.
we were always planning to meet.
but there's always things cropping up.
anyways, we ate lunch.
walk ard.
chill at the new Mc Cafe. (yum!)
den off to the lib.
n guess wat.
i saw tis guy, Imran Ajmain.
he's tis mly artiste n aini being aini, is crazy abt him!
so by the time i told her its him, he oreadi walked pass us.
n dear aini blamed me for nt telling her i saw him.
she was so psyched abt him.
she so wanted to take a pic wif him.
i asked her to go after him.
but she reckoned she was too shy for it.
like real.
haha.
so it became my fault dat i'm the one who saw tis guy
n clearly, she was still happy dat she got to see abit of him.
just for the record, i don even like tis guy at all.
haha.

missing them ; alot

2007-07-31T21:04:00.000+08:00

so friday was my last day in riverside.
despite the fact dat they promised me dat i wld stay till the end of the year.
i was damn sad.
no, dats actually understating it.
i'm DEVASTATED!
no one can imagine how i feel.
n moreover, i felt very attached to the students.
n tis had to happened.
i just felt like crying.
which i did actually.
but nt because of tis.
its cos the students made me!
the classes i taught bought me gifts.
2/5 even made me tis huge board saying tanx n all.
how can i nt cry rite?
sigh.
pics will be up soon.
i'm just sad.
boooohoooooooooooo

Racial Harmony Day part II (:

2007-07-23T21:36:00.000+08:00

the relief & trainee teachers
the ones who keep me sane :)

azizah. me. anis

shu hua n me
the one who wanted to wear the punjabi suit

me n annabelle
the garang but nice one

me n rawaidah
my looooong-lost senior! :)

and finally, thaqif and me (:
the student and the teacher aka
the cadet and the s/clt

Racial Harmony Day! (:

2007-07-20T19:55:00.000+08:00

today our sch celebrated Racial Harmony Day!
sch as in Riverside Secondary School.
yups.
heh.

teachers and students alike wore ethnic costumes.
was damn nice!
took pics wif my fellow relief and trainee teachers.
ok.
i just love being there.
the frens are great!
heh.
students are ok.
of course, u cant expect angel-like.
its just impossible.

will post up the pics soooooonest! :)

whee!

2007-07-19T20:40:00.000+08:00

ok.
i passed my BTT!
wheee :)
thank goodness.

i wan to take up tuition.
Maths (E or A), Science (Phy/Chem), English & Humanities (Hist/SS).
anyone noes anyone who wans tuition?
leave me a tag ok!
appreciate lots! :)

booo!

2007-07-13T20:42:00.000+08:00

i wan to watch TRANSFORMERS!!!!!

*stomp stomp!*

dat is.
if they are still screening.
boohooooooo

lovers to friends ; why do all good things come to an end?

my poor fingers

2007-06-29T22:00:00.000+08:00

oooooooo.

guess wat? guess wat?

my fingers got slammed by the car door yest!
haha.
it was damn painful when it happened.
but after dat, it was quite ok.
lucky for me, it didnt swell.
mom felt guilty cos she closed the door.
but den, i was the stupid one who put my hand there.
it just had to happen two days before race day.
but i'm ok nw.
it just hurt a little.
:)

tmr's the starting of june race!
i'm quite psyched abt it.
quite nervous too.
lets all put in your best.
no holding back.
all the way!!

u can start calling me miss lisa nw :)

new!

2007-06-22T18:44:00.000+08:00

somehow a trip to the hairdresser on monday took a turn.
went there, intended to get a trim for the unruly hair.
n it turned out to be smth else!

felt weird abt the new hair at first.
i still am getting used to it nw.
when jerry first saw the new do, he went: omg! ur goin to shock the world!
that big reaction.
apart from that, some said i looked ok.
some said i looked different.
haha.
wayne the new teammate yest said i looked like barbie.
just the fat version i guess.
haha.
i shall not post any photos of the new hair.
till i'm ready.

don speak ; i noe wat ur thinking

2007-06-19T13:23:00.000+08:00

trgs on sat n sunday was a killer.
i had a small abrasion on my left underarm after sat's trg.
n after sunday's, it became a whole lot bigger. :(
we ran on sunday before trg.
half of the bedok reservoir.
didnt look like it was damn far.
but den, u need to run the road to noe how far is it.
hah.

so i'm still jobless.
looking n looking.
i tink aini's gotten a job.
candice went for an interview tis morning.
n i'm still jobless.
damn.
hope to get a job sooooooon.

anw.
i tink i look weird nw.
sheesh.
haha.

you had my heart ; we'll nv be worlds apart

penang & grad ceremony

2007-06-13T20:55:00.000+08:00

okays.
back from penang.
had a great time there.
though most of the time i'm coughing.
bleahs.
will upload the pics soon.
:)

grad ceremony was ok.
felt glad n sappy at the same time.
didnt tink i wld feel sad abt leaving the sch.
heh.
but it was great.
met up wif some of the long-time-no-see classmates.
n of course, our classmate Laureen Lau Jia Jia is the best from BIT.
again, will upload pics soon. :)

i was just being sensitive ; aint i?

2007-06-07T12:34:00.000+08:00

off to penang tonight! :)

will be back on monday morning.

just in time for my Graduation Ceremony!

wheeee.

some things in life arent as nice as it seems

2007-06-01T21:17:00.000+08:00

PA Paddle's race tmr!

wish me luck :)

screwed

2007-05-25T23:51:00.000+08:00

finally took my fitness test during trg yest.

i don feel good abt it.
cos i noe i can do better.
i screwed up.
sigh.
but i've been feeling totally tired these days.
i guess that's the cons of teaching morning session.
but den my 2.4 timing improved by 1min since i took NAPFA 2 months ago.
i didnt do well on bridge anw.
sucky.

i broke down halfway thru the test.

dajie said i was being silly.
i guess i was.
but the pressure to perform n knowing i can do it,
just makes me wan to excel so badly.

but anyways.
its over.
for next test, i'll do better!

its my seat , and dats dat!

sick

2007-05-16T11:22:00.000+08:00

cold+fever+cough = the greatest combination

ugh
i hate being sick
its sucky
i cant even take the fitness test yest
boohoooo

blursweethothunky :)

2007-05-14T13:46:00.000+08:00

FAILED

yet again

ugh

ooooooo wheeeee

2007-05-12T20:11:00.000+08:00

so my most fave band in the whole world is back wif a new album!!!

LINKIN PARK's Minutes to Midnight!

yey-nesss!!!
i just love linkin park.
though their appearances haf changed.
but yes, i do still love them.
they're my No1 fave!
whee.

go get them!

the more i tink abt it ; the more pain i feel

2007-05-09T17:26:00.000+08:00

as usual.
took a lift from george to yishun after trg yest.
it was as per normal.
but yest was abit different.

cos we almost got stuck in the middle of the junction!

haha.

we were at yishun.
near khatib mrt.
george was driving super fast, as usual.
n when we were nearing the traffic light, it was oreadi orange.
n then, it turned red.
but he was driving too fast to stop.
he stepped on the brake but decided its too fast to stop.
so he drove even faster n beat the red light!
hah.
thank goodness no one horned at us.
heh.

ok.
just blog tis down.
cos i love to sit in george's car.
its fast!! :)

argh!

2007-05-09T00:28:00.000+08:00

its the second time the same thing happen to me.

am i just unlucky?

or am i just stupid?

it hurts me so much ; i'm not quite sure i care anymore

girls night out

2007-05-07T19:02:00.000+08:00

so there's nth much to update.

went out for dinner wif the girls on friday.
organised by carie. :)
was at creation cafe.
it was nice.
though the service was nt very good.
may waited for abt 1++ hr for her chicken alfredo spag.
haha.
but it was quite cheap.
$14.90 for set dinner.
main course+soup+drinks+dessert!
n dessert was the delicious brownie.
heh.

not all the girls were there though.
like phyllis dajie.
n the sick van.
heh.

but it was good.
i'll post up the pics soon ok?

carie thought of goin somewhere else after dat.
but most of us wanted to go hm.
i was too tired to go anywhere anw.
haha.

train ride hm wif carie n hui tin.
they made my train ride a fun one.
cos they are quite crappy.
esp hui tin!
haha.

okays.
update again sooon. :)